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Tick, tock, tick, tock …

Another day crawls by. I’m signed up for the August camp of National Novel Writing Month. 6 days to go! Time is going too slowly. I haven’t got much writing done – only 74 words today. I can’t really focus on writing when I’m this tired and distracted.

 

I have got my mum’s transcription done though so that’s one less thing on my agenda. Of course then my sister became a much bigger priority in my life. When one door closes a whopping great big hole in a wall opens.

 

My sister is doing well – tossing back the painkillers ever 4 hours. I managed to get a bit more sleep today but my body is still resisting me. I’m intending to up my dosage of beta-blockers so hopefully that will help. Still I don’t really mind. Time with my sister is never wasted. Looking after her makes me happy even if it is just watching over her as she sleeps.

 

A trip to the acupuncturist today means at least my back pain is down to normal levels and my headache reasonable. Dark glasses are still as standard though.

 

Hours Sleep Today so far : – 5 hours in 2 sessions 😦
Headache intensity / pain level : 3 🙂
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 3 😀
Fatigue : 5.5 😐
Brain Fog : 5.5 🙂

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Who turned the sun on so bright ? …

I cracked my eyes open this morning and it felt like someone was shoving a hot knitting needle into my left eye. And that was in my cave of a bedroom ! I really need to get to the doctors about the beta-blocker dosage. After my last missed appointment I am being punished as the only appointment time the receptionist could give me was 09:20 on a Saturday morning. Really 09:20 who is up at that uncivilized hour ?!

 

Pending the review of my medication dosage I shall hide behind dark glasses and a baseball hat. This does make me look a bit strange in the library. I’ve got a couple of books to return but I’ve only read one in the last week – a shockingly low number for me. Too busy keeping busy. My sister is off to a conference next week so I will have the evenings to myself. I will probably spend that time catching up on my pleasure reading. I’ve got a heap of J.D. Robb‘s In Death series borrowed from the library so I shall tackle them when I get back to reading.

 

I finally got myself sorted out and rang the Open University yesterday to sort out my degree classification. The degree that I had linked my computing courses to (B29) is going to stop being awarded in 2014. It is unlikely in the extreme that I will complete the required modules before that point. So I needed to shift onto the new replacement qualification (B62). While I was at it I got the Learning Support Team member to sort out my transitional fee arrangements so that I won’t have to pay through the nose to finish my degree. Because I am shifting degree classifications my current modules don’t match up with the pathway of the new award. So I shall be making another phone call tomorrow, once the computer has had time to process me, and discuss what modules I have already studied that I can count in place of the new required modules and which modules I will have to complete in order to satisfy the qualification requirements.

 

Hours Sleep Today so far : – 6 hours in 1 session 😐
Headache intensity / pain level : 4.5 😦
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 2 😀
Fatigue : 4.5 🙂
Brain Fog : 5.5 🙂

I dub thee the Weaseliest Usurper of Catan …

Hours Sleep in 24 hours :
Today so far : – 8 hours in 2 sessions 😦
Headache intensity / pain level : 5 😦
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 2 😀
Fatigue : 5 😐
Brain Fog : 4 🙂

 

I won at The Settlers of Catan, whoo !! I’m on a bit of a streak actually I’ve won 3 out of the 4 times in the last couple of days. Not by any forward planning or strategy I can assure you. I just got lucky with the numbers. The fairest Empress of Catan (my sister) whose rule has been absolute in these games is now in a rivalry with the Weaseliest Usurper of Catan. I’m sure I’ll be thrown off my throne soon enough. My sister actually plays with strategy !!

 

That was the highlight of my day since I’ve been dealing with an agonizing headache all day. There is one particularly bad spike right above my left eye which is driving me crazy. Clearly I need to go the dose on the beta-blockers. Unfortunately I slept through my doctors’ appointment on Friday so I need to make a new one. Even my dad forgot so I wasn’t alone in my memory loss. So I am now a statistic – this many people have missed appointments this month. I am on the revolving screen of shame as a number !

 

I completed 3 hours of working on my novel last night. 17, 000 words now ! I’m not sure if I’ve got a little off track at the moment. It’s mainly cos I don’t want to have to deal with that trip I was talking about before. I still haven’t got the details straight in my head !! However I’ve written some useful material even if it doesn’t end up in the novel in it’s current form or position.

 

Well I’m off now to potter a bit more before bed. I’m been sliding my day round again so I need to try and get into bed for midnight tonight rather than 04:30 like this morning !!

Enter my time warp …

Hours Sleep in 24 hours :
Today so far : – 10 hours in 1 session 🙂
Headache intensity / pain level : 2 😀
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 2 😀
Fatigue : 6 😦
Brain Fog : 6 😦

I can’t believe it’s been 3 days since my last post. I honestly feel like I’m asleep all the time at the moment even when I’m awake !! Due to a miscalculation of dates on my part I messed up my medication and ran out of the slow release beta blockers before my next prescription arrived. Entirely my fault for not keeping better track but going back onto the 10 mg tablets has led to a couple of days of really bad headaches and very poor sleep. Anyway hopefully now I’m back on my proper medication I will go back to being pain free at least.

 

Oh good news I don’t know if I told you about my TMA 01 for M363 but I got 82 out of 100. I am very, very pleased with that mark especially given how difficult I found it to get my brain to work for me as the deadline loomed. Now I’m counting down to the next deadline. Given that I haven’t managed to read any of my units for weeks now I’m not super hopeful of running to schedule !!

 

Right I’m off to crawl into bed to recover from my latest Amazon buying spree. I know I promised I wouldn’t. But in all fairness I had in fact read all the previous first book romances I’d bought and was just buying the rest of the books in the new authors’ series’. Still I know but I’m just not in the mood to read any of the fantasy and scfi going unread on my Kindle at the mo. I’m sure I’ll switch back into a more serious reading mood sometime. I always do eventually.

Who needs magic when we have books …

Hours Sleep in 24 hours :
Today so far : – 11 hours in 2 sessions 😐
Headache intensity / pain level : 2 😀
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 2 😀
Fatigue : 6 😦
Brain Fog : 6 😦

 

Well if there was a hole I could comfortably crawl into I would. The beta-blockers seem to be wearing off. Surprisingly it’s not the really bad migraines that get me down so much. It is the niggly headache that never goes away. I mean it is painful but it’s nothing compared to the full blown migraine so I should just be able to suck it up right ? But feeling like someone is peeling a strip of skin off the top of your head all day everyday starts to wear on the soul. I suppose the headache must be worse than I think since I’ve been close to tears a couple of times today. Not because the pain is too much emotionally but rather because the pain causes my eyes to tear up.

 

I have been escaping the pain the best way I know how which is to escape into another world through the ‘pages’ of a book. Although I have actually been turning pages as Mercedes Lackey has not made the wholesale jump to Kindle yet. I’ve spent yesterday and today reading the Mage Storm Trilogy. Now I’m undecided whether to read the Owl Mage Triogy or the series of Short Story Collections. I also have a pile of Urban fantasy books making a pile on my bedroom floor so I have plenty of choice. I probably should read the library books since the holiday approaches and it is ethically better to return the books to the library so others can read them than hang onto them when I know I won’t be in the same country as my personal hoard.

 

I’ve got several books on the reserved list so I can guarantee after waiting at least a month on some of them that they will arrive in the 2 weeks I’m away. Talking of books arriving I’ve made up my mind to buy my Kindle holiday books tomorrow. I have worked out my list and how much it will cost. I intend to try and stick to strict list and not rabble off buying any old Kindle book. It will be a test of my buying restraint. But these books are my big holiday present to myself. With the low levels of activity general to my family I expect there will be lots of read time available.

Need an industrial fan to blow away the fog …

Hours Sleep in 24 hours :
Today so far : – 11 hours in 1 session 🙂
Headache intensity / pain level : 1 😀
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 0 😀
Fatigue : 6 😐
Brain Fog : 6 😦

 

I don’t know – another day of struggling along. I’ve been having very strong heart palpitations all day. I yawned while on the way to wash my hands and had my vision go black – not an amusing situation. Still I did manage to make my sister’s toast as ordered, like a good little slave, without falling over. My sister has yet to learn how to cook toast precisely to perfection the way I can so I’m always called in to make it when toast is needed.

 

My mum had a very quiet Mothers’ Day since neither my sister nor I managed to buy cards for her. We are treating her to dinner on Wednesday but still. She did get lots of hugs and doesn’t expect much from me given I don’t leave the house except for medical appointments. We’re not really a family that does big celebrations for annual events. Mum didn’t buy Dad a Valentine’s card. Birthdays frequently go uncelebrated except for cards and a quiet dinner out. We have made an effort for some events – my parents 25th and 30th Wedding Anniversaries, my 25th Birthday, my sister’s 18th Birthday, my sister’s graduation. But in general we just try to make sure that our family members know how much we love them everyday (not the royal we by the way!).

 

I have been enjoying reading my way through The Oathbound by Mercedes Lackey but I really need to be doing some coursework towards my first assignment for the OU due 4th April. I just can’t get my head on straight at the moment. The heart palpitations aren’t helping as anytime I focus inwards I can feel my heart beating away causing an ache in my chest and throat. I really need to be brushing up on Units 1, 2 and 3 from M363 but so far have only managed to scan the TMA 01 – enough to realize I can’t even read the questions clearly let alone try to answer them! Still I try to take a deep breath and hope for better brain health tomorrow. I’m definitely better this week than I was last week so it’s just a matter of wait and see. Hopefully as I increase my beta-blockers my brain fog issues might decrease too.

Where’s a sheepdog to keep those sheep from jumping fences?

Hours Sleep in 24 hours :
Today so far : – 10 hours in 2 sessions 🙂
Headache intensity / pain level : 3 🙂
Nausea level : 0 😀
Joint / muscle pain : 0 😀
Fatigue : 6 😦
Brain Fog : 6 😦

 

It’s annoying being this tired all the time. I had 8 hours sleep, woke to my alarm and I felt as those I might as well as not bothered sleeping at all. I was just exhausted in the acupuncturist’s. It’s fine when I relax but a real pain when I feel like I might actually fall asleep and end up curled in the foetal position around my needles. Makes me very tense combined with waves of exhaustion this leads to me feeling like I’ve been fighting a war by the time I get out of the session. I just curled in bed when I got home for another 2 hours. Since it was my baby sister’s birthday I couldn’t exactly stay in bed all evening though otherwise I might have tried to. I certainly did last night. Went for a nap at 18:00; woke up at 21:00 and just refused to get out of bed. I read a book instead. Thankfully my sister was out at a PhD meal thing so she didn’t miss me.

 

I saw Doctor P yesterday and she told me that one of the side effects of the beta-blockers is tiredness so we are going to have to weigh the benefits of the beta-blockers against how tired I end up being. However today I definitely had palpitations and dizziness so I am almost certainly going to need a higher dose than I am on at the moment. Hopefully we can find a way to deal with the side-effects of the beta-blockers. I woke up with a headache today. First one in a while now. It wasn’t horrendous or anything – probably to do with being woken before my natural sleep cycle ended but it was a reminder that the headaches are still there to be dealt with.

 

I did managed to finish Magic’s Pawn (with tissues handy) and then read all of Magic’s Promise yesterday. I’m now working my way through Magic’s Price – I expect I’ll need more tissues by the end of this one too. I’m always a weepy reader. It’s the suicide / low self-esteem stuff – gets me every time. I’m not sure what I’ll read next. I have a pile of library books that need reading. The next trilogy by Mercedes Lackey, The Collegium Chronicles, is incomplete so I might skip that to the singles. Or I might just skip ahead totally and read the Arrow’s Trilogy.